Kicking Off
So who am I? I’m Nathan Sebastian Weaver born the 6th March 1980 @ 10:37am in Chester Hospital weighing 8lbs 1oz, so far so good. However, all was not so good! I was constantly being sick. It was so bad my dad says when I threw up I could hit the other side of the room! They discovered some sort of tumour in my stomach. I needed an operation. Now then, with me been just a few days old if they did operate there was a 50/50 chance I wouldn’t make it. And if they didn’t operate I most properly wouldn’t of survived any way. I was definitely up the creak without a paddle! Mum and dad had little alternative, all they could do was pray, and that’s exactly what they did-prayed. The story goes, just before I went off to theatre, it was agreed that the doctors would x-ray me again. And so they did, and came back somewhat bemused-the results were clear this time-there was no tumour! The doctors could not explain it. To be honest I am convinced as are my parents that a miracle took place that day- Jesus healed me!
Now it may be you have a sickness or a pain or condition that the specialists are struggling to sort out. Well, trust me God can sort it. There is not a need you have, He can’t deal with. Maybe you need some prayer? I don’t how it all works but I am living proof that God can heal!
Kicking Butt & Throws
From an early age, well for as long as I can remember, I liked to play wrestle with my dad and brother. In fact any guy who visited the Weaver family home. To be frank I not only enjoyed it I thought I was pretty good at it.
My dad used to take part in Judo as a kid and for many years kept telling me I should give it a go. I think to be honest he was just sick of the pain from wrestling me. I kept saying I wasn’t interested, but one day when I was 20 I decided I would give it a go. So I went to Judo and to my surprise it wasn’t long before I started winning tournaments and going up the belts. Believe it or not I actually won the British National Championships for under black over 100kg. To cut a long story short I currently hold a 1st Dan black belt.
I must admit I was never the bloke with the best technique or even the fittest geezer in the world but I do believe God used my strength and natural ability to help me do well in Judo.
Now you may be feeling that you have nothing to give or don’t have a winner within you. Well I want to let you know… You do have something to offer to make a difference in this world. The winner in you has nothing to do with sport or coming first or winning a prize or even being the strongest. It’s about you having value and true self-worth and reaching your God given potential and walking into your own destiny.
I believe God knows you by name and knows everything about you. He has planted seeds of greatness with in you and He wants to help you to achieve and succeed in every area of life.
Kick in the Guts
So without going into too much detail, I remember a time when I got involved in a lot of bad stuff and it really affected me. To be honest it affected me so badly I couldn’t sleep, eat or function properly. I couldn’t look people in the eye; I just wasn’t interacting like normal. I felt sick, hurt, confused powerless, trapped and very lonely. I literally didn’t know which way to turn. It was defiantly a dark place. In fact my family thought I was having a break down. I knew I needed to get help and I defiantly needed to let God in to help me. There was a three week period when I felt God was practically on my case. So I went and faced God with it all, and got the help I needed to work it through. The moment I got on my knees before God and confessed my wrong doing, I felt a huge release, like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I felt that I had been forgiven and set free from the heavy burden of it all. For the first time in a long time, I felt that I was accepted and loved. Of course it may be that you are feeling that the things you have done or are doing are too big for God to deal with. I know from my own experience that God is big enough and well able to deal with and set you free from the past, and the things you are struggling with. Not just that, He can give you a future and a hope and something to look forward to as well.
Kicked Out
It was the 2 October 2004 when I got married and felt like the proudest man on earth. We got stuck into married life and we got more and more busy with our respective jobs. It wasn’t long into the marriage before we began to seriously fall out. We had massive arguments. Most of time they were over very trivial and unimportant things. I thought this must be normal, you know trying to adjust to having someone else fully in your life. Naively I thought that our arguments were happening due to our busy life and work commitments, and that it would all be okay once everything had settled down. Well things didn’t get any better. In fact they got worse. My ex-wife and I grew further and further apart, due to things that both of us had done that we weren’t proud off, but couldn’t seem to get over or work through. Believe me; this wasn’t for the lack of trying or for people around us trying to help. Sadly in April 2007 we started divorce proceedings and on the 21st December 2007 we were issued with the Decree Absolute. I still don’t fully understand why it all fell apart. But I do know some of it was my own doing. I know it was a desperate time, a time when I didn’t have much joy in my life. Once again, I just didn’t know what to do. I ended up throwing myself into work to keep busy by trying to shut all the hurt out. My close family were great, but interestingly enough I felt some of my so called friends went missing at the time. All I know is Jesus helped me through this tough time and in time healed my broken heart.
You may be in a similar situation and don’t know which way to turn. This I do know, if you turn to my friend Jesus Christ and ask for help He will not hold back in helping you. I know He’s there just waiting for you to call on Him.
Kicking It Around In Your Head and Heart
Obviously I don’t know what your situation is right now, I don’t know what you’re going through or what your life currently looks like. It could be good it could be bad. But what I am sure about is this-that the God I believe in, this Jesus, I have talked and written about here, wants to be a part of your life and family. I know He wants to do you good. You have read how my life has had its ups and downs; I can tell you it has been a heck of rollercoaster. I’ll admit, I haven’t understood parts and I also admit I have brought some of these problems on myself through wrong choices I have made. The one thing I am absolutely certain of, is that Jesus Christ has been a constant in my life whatever; whether it’s been good or bad. I can honestly say that if it was not for Him I don’t know where I would be today.
This is what the bible says: “God loves you so much that He sent His only son Jesus Christ to save you, that if you believe in Him you will not perish but have everlasting life.”
Now that’s a massive promise and if its true- it’s too important you or me to ignore.
Now, so far all this has been about me and my story. But can I take the liberty of asking you a couple of simple questions.
1. Are you happy with your life?
2. What do you think your next move should be?
I suppose there is three options.
- Not bothered! And say this is a load of rubbish (If this is what you want to do that’s okay – but think about it carefully before you do, but it is your choice. May I thank you for taking the time to read my story.)
- You could be saying, ‘Hey there could be something in this, but I’m not at the point where I want to accept Christ into my life like you have Nathan. But I do have some questions and I would like to explore it further.’ (If this is the case, please do not hesitate to contact me. My details are on the contact page.)
- Or, You may be saying, I am ready to ask Jesus into my life! I do want a fresh start. (If this is what you want to do say the following prayer to God in your own heart, but make sure you mean it).
Kicking the past into touch and getting a kick start for the future.
So here’s the prayer…
“…Lord Jesus Christ, here I am, I can come no other way, so take me as I am. Thank you for loving me even though I haven’t loved you. You know the things I have done which are not great and have not been pleasing in your eyes. I ask that you forgive me for all the selfish and sinful things that I have done of which some are still in my life. Thank you for forgiving me and coming into my life. Help me now as I start over again, but this time with you at the centre, no longer am I going to go my own way. Today I am deciding to follow you by asking you to be my saviour and Lord. Holy Spirit help me to know without a doubt that you have come into my life. Amen.”
If you have said this prayer and meant it I would like to say you have just made one of the best decisions you will ever make in your life time! Congratulations!!
Now I would like you to let me know if you have prayed this prayer. I would like to send you a book that will help you develop your new relationship with Christ Jesus.- Free of charge. Get in touch with me by using the contact form here
So there it is..
That’s my story and I hope you have found it interesting. I would really like to say a big thank-you for taking the time to read my story.